Social Anxiety That I Couldn't Overcome
May 12, 2016
I'm 23 and have been an undergrad for 6 years. I was diagnosed with depression 2 years ago. I have been failing my way through these 6 terrible years and finally decided to take a 1 year break from studying.
I missed most of my classes especially those that required me to present due to social anxiety that I couldn't overcome.
I had anxiety attacks when I worked on assignments and couldn't finish many. I think it was because I was afraid of how my professors would judge my work. I know its silly because they are supposed to judge and grade your work. But I was afraid of failure so there were times I would just give up rather than try.
I'm due to start school again this summer but I don't feel ready at all. I have had very few anxiety attacks since I stopped school but they are staring up again. Just thinking about school triggers it. I have problems sleeping again too. I think I care too much about other people's judgement of me too because I'm afraid of how my professors are going to look at me when I return to school too. I don't want to return to school but I have to because if I don't I would be wasting years of education. Not to mention the huge college debt I have to repay which I can't if I don't graduate and get a good job.
Sorry for this long rant. I'm just ranting on because there is no one I can talk to and I needed to tell someone how I feel. I hope writing this down would be enough to get this pressure of my chest so that I can fall asleep after 2 days of insomnia. If by any chance anyone reads this, do you have any advice on how I can survive 1 year of school to graduate? Any meds I can take that will miraculously solve my issues?
View 2 Replies
Advertisement
I'm a 26 year old female I'm a bit over weight and I'm tall but since I was about 18 I started getting anxiety at first it was social but I worry about EVERYTHING ! I always think I'm dying or have a serious illness like now I'm obsessed with peeing I think I have to pee then I do and I'm scared I have a uti which I've been checked and I don't I don't have diabetes but I'm just scared can anxiety do this ? Can my mind trick my body ?
View 1 Replies
Ok, so just a short introduction about myself. I'm currently 25, I'm a male with chinese ethnicity. My nickname is Jas. I came from a pretty well-off family (enough to get me my needs and some of my wants) . I have a couple of caring but overprotective parents. I went through my entire "going-to-school" life with them. I graduated with a decent course and was successful in getting my professional licence. Life was really great that time for me, but i think I only felt that way because I was naive back then.
Anyway... As soon as I started working, I left home for good. I went into a different city and started to become an independent person. I was around 21-ish that time. This is when I became conscious of my behaviours and holes within myself. I think, a big part of this is due to me staying with my parents for a very long time, which probably delayed my maturity, but hey, let's not live in the past. Let's focus on what we have right now.
So when I started to become conscious with my own movements, I looked for ways to improve myself - I spent long hours in a day to reflect how my day went, how i behaved in front of other people, etc... When I started, it was really bad - i didn't know how to carry myself in public, people would most often laugh at me. One thing i noticed also is that I craved for attention - I was needy. I didn't know how to construct my thoughts properly. I didn't even know how to know what I feel for a certain scenario. I was really bad that time, trust me... If i write all of them here, this will be a VERY LONG list. Oh well, that was the past. But over time, I was able to get some of the negative traits out. I gained more control over myself now. But there are some that I can't get out:
1. Negative intrusive thoughts - thoughts of people laughing at me... thoughts of people bullying me. It's one that keeps on going my head OVER and OVER again. I have read some of the forums and took the advise to replace negative thoughts with positive ones. yeah it sure helped, but when i'm under pressure, i just lose control of myself. For example, one of the things i'm interested with is music... singing.. playing musical instruments. I could very well do those stuff if i'm alone, but if i'm in front of several people, thoughts like people laughing at me creeps into my mind, then i lose control with myself. I don't know why, but I'm so overwhelmed with my emotions, that I lose control of myself completely.
2. Social anxiety - Back then, I was really afraid of people. I don't know what to do in social gatherings (i was the one who sits in the corner and eats cheese). Soon, of course, i had to face my fear and had to start talking with people. I think i found some success in it. Although, my biggest problem right now i think is approaching groups. it's like i feel fear even before i do anything. I think my reasoning also break down quite easily when i'm under pressure (like for unexpected circumstances/responses...).
View 5 Replies
So I started college in the Fall of 2014, finished a semester and quit. I couldn't order food at the food court, ask questions, give a presentation or talk to anyone without being nervous and "rehearsing" what I was going to say over and over again in my head before I could attempt to say something. It was mentally draining trying to keep up with school work and deal with the social aspect of college at the same time. I gave up my dream of being a Veterinary Assistant because of stupid social anxiety. When I'm talking with people, I feel like I can't catch my breath, can't keep eye contact and I feel cloudy for some reason like I'm in a dream. I feel that way a lot, I try so hard to stay calm at all times and just block out the anxiety but I can't. I feel so mentally drained by the time I get home,and no matter how much sleep I get, I still feel exhausted when I wake up. I'm not depressed, but I always feel so tired. Does medication help? I'm afraid of it having a bad effect on me. I just want to know if other people feel the way I do, and how they handle it.
View 2 Replies
I was prescribed Zoloft + Lyrica for my social anxiety/depression and was wondering if any of you guys has had any experience with one of them or both. but it would also be interesting to know your experience with other medication as well, so i know this is the right route to go to, i have gone to counselling and it hasn't helped so i thought i should go through the medication route.
View 5 Replies
I'm an 18 year old male and i was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder, social anxiety disorder and depersonalization. I feel very depressed and was wondering if i should give the meds a try? right now all i do is drink beer and stay in my room. I had a job at a liquor store but i got fired and they didn't tell me why, and i also lost my first love and after all that happened i turned to alcohol. I can't even go in public without getting very tense and spaced out, like i feel like everyone is watching me and judging me.
View 2 Replies
Has anyone had good results with Strattera, my doctor prescribed this for me approx. 3 weeks ago. I suffer from severe anxiety, social phobia and dysthymia.
We have tried various anti-depressants. The only one that really worked was serzone. Then it was taken off the market.
View 1 Replies
Hi everyone, I'm new here and I've decided to post here because I don't know where to turn. I've been feeling suicidal because I have no social life, I'm behind in school and I switched to a charter school so that I could graduate faster but this only made my situation worse. On the first day of school I went to my class and I felt so overwhelmed by the amount of people in one class. After school I went crying to the principal because I knew that my social anxiety was never going to leave me alone no matter how much I tried. So she helped me by putting me in a small office with another teacher and another girl who has Social anxiety too but she rarely ever comes to school.
Today, I was alone all day because both the teacher and the other student didn't come. I felt so alone and I couldn't concentrate on my packets (school work) which is pretty typical because I've been having problems focusing in school since last school year. I told another staff member if I could stay home and do my work instead of coming to school because I just didn't like being alone and I couldn't concentrate but she said I couldn't do that because I had to come to school so that they get paid. Honestly I don't know what to do. I can't drop out of school , there are no online school services in my area, and I don't wanna go back to a regular public school because having 8 different classes a day was a nightmare to me last year.
My parents already know of my problems but they can't help me. Honestly I don't wanna go to school tomorrow because I'm just feeling so depressed and I can't take it anymore. my dad thinks I'm procrastinating. Honestly, he doesn't understand exactly how I feel. I feel like the whole world is falling on me and I feel like I'm never going to succeed in life, which is one of the things my dad himself told me.
I don't know what to do or where to turn to. I can't dropout of high school or take online school and I can't get medical help because my parents don't have health care.
View 1 Replies
Sometimes I think I'm going crazy. I'm not being able to even hold a job right now. This makes my self esteem goes downhill and I can't get up of my bed because I fear people.
i'm a mid 30s woman and I'm not sure what made me become so sick. I have a string of failed relationships and in one of them I suffered domestic abuse. I started dating my current boyfriend as soon as my other relationship ended and had too many problems with him but we are still together. He is an ex addict and I'm always afraid he turns back to drinking and doing drugs.
sometimes I think I'm getting insane. I have panic attacks all the time, I can't process my feelings. I tried group meditation but I became too scared of people in general I just gave up. I'm locked home for a whole month now.
im truly thinking about ending my life. I don't see a point. My whole being is taken with these bad sensations, feelings, lack of hope, lack of control, my thoughts flow uncontrollable like a river and I just can't process anything. I'm getting old and I am a huge burden to everybody.
I don't wanna die. I wanted to know if anyone went through these hard times like me and was able to live again.
View 5 Replies
How do some of you overcome your panic attacks ? Or at least make them a lot more comfortable to live with?
Any advice apart from deep breathing would be useful as I'm continuing to have them almost every few hours .
View 6 Replies
I have a sibling who suffers from Turner's Syndrome. I've studied a little about it in school's Biology class and I understand that they have multiple issues such as infertility. Is there a way or method to overcome infertility?
View 1 Replies
I'm 39 weeks. Had some pressure and went to the bathroom. I tried to stop myself from peeing while on the toilet and couldn't stop. It was a gush and then nothing. Could that have been my water breaking?
View 3 Replies
There was a period where I couldn't sleep 4 days in a row because of a weird head tightening and pressure in head until I took a sleeping pill.
Ever since this I have been getting this weird pressure in head when I stay in front of the computer for 2/3 hours and when I lie down my head is pounding and pulsing with my heartbeat and its hard to fall asleep.The fun thing is that when I go outside with my friends this thing doesn't happen.Only when I stay at home or when im in front of the computer.(before this sleeplessness I could stay on my computer for hours)Please Help I anxious thinking .
View 3 Replies
I started venlafaxine sun 37.5 twice a day i was ok most of yesterday but then last night i couldn't stop crying. I came off sertraline last wk as it wasn't working. How long does it take to work?
View 5 Replies
I had my gallbladder out almost a year ago and a month after surgery i had serious issues. Bad stomach pains, couldn't eat, lost a bunch of weight, woken up in middle of night with HR around 135. Long story short i still have issues but some seem worse. Whole upper abdomen hurts now and causes chest discomfort. I've had too many tests done and no answer. Always constipated too. Most of my pain was on right along whole side now its upper left side too and whole stomach. Some relief when i have bowel movement. Still get woken up with raised HR and sometimes BP and will feel cold, shaky, cold sweat. Had heart checked and its fine. Ideas?
View 1 Replies
I have a pretty deep laceration to my left index finger but the way that I cut it they could not stitch so they put something they called liquid stitch on it to close it up which has worn off now. It has been 2 weeks now and my finger is very stiff sand I can not bend it at all. Also it aches from time to time and is very itchy. Should I be worried or should i give it more time to heal?
View 1 Replies
I was taken into hospital with severely painful kidneys, and given morphine as pain relief. Unfortunately this gave me terrible nausea so I was given Cyclizine via IV. Within 10 seconds I went into anaphylactic shock and couldn't breath unassisted. I had to be given adrenalin and was on oxygen for a considerable time. For the next two days I couldn't urinate and had to be catheterized. It was a frightening and stressful experience. The attending doctor told me that it was unheard of for anyone to be allergic to this drug, and that my inability to pee was not connected. I am still trying to recover. More research needs to be done. I believe this drug is dangerous.
View 21 Replies
About 3 and half weeks ago (24 days to be exact) I ingested 100 mg of a drug called Molly, which is a form of Ecstasy. This was done simultaneously with lots of alcohol (all beer). I am typically not a drug user, trying marijuana only a couple of times, but I had consumed alcohol fairly often (pretty much every weekend, not during weeks), before that. I was with 10 other people in a safe setting who all did the drug (most of which took a higher dose).
In the days after the night that I consumed the drug, I felt extremely lightheaded, nauseous, couldn't sleep, heart was racing, and I was very worried that I had done permanent damage to myself or my brain. As the weeks have gone by, the nauseousness and insomnia have gone away, but I still am feeling lightheaded and dizzy. Everyone that I was with felt completely back to normal after a day or two, and it seems I am the only one who feels this way. It is better than it was the week after, but by no means do I feel normal. I am now extremely worried and having extreme anxiety that I will feel like this forever and that I have permanently messed myself up.
Does anyone know what could be wrong with me? I just want to feel normal again. I have been to two doctors, each of whom has taken a blood test from me, and they told me that the blood tests came back normal. They both told me that the lightheadedness and dizziness would both subside, and that I needed to stop worrying about it, but it has now been almost 4 weeks and I am still feeling the same way.
I am just really scared that I have messed up and ruined my life by taking that one drug one time.
PS; I am fully aware what a mistake it was to take the drug in the first place. I understand that whatever I am feeling I deserve, and I will never come close to doing any hard drug ever again.
View 14 Replies
Hi. I just wondered if what I'm experiencing is normal. For the past 2-3 months I've had constant anxiety symptoms. I'm not just talking anxious thoughts (although I have those all the time), I'm talking physical symptoms. All day long, I have a horrible tightness in my chest, butterflies in my stomach, dry mouth, internal shaking in my legs and adrenaline rushes up and down my body. I can't control the symptoms, no matter how hard I try. When it first hit, it was different. I had constant nausea & a general feeling of not being able to cope. But I could switch out of it sometimes and feel normal. Now I can never switch out of it. It's there all the time, although the nausea has stopped. I even have it in my sleep because I've actually felt it in my dreams and when I wake up, it's still there. (Not that I can sleep much in this state. 5 hours is the most I ever have.) I'm on Citalopram but if anything, it's made my anxiety worse. The leg symptoms weren't there before I went on the drug and nor was the chest tightness.
View 20 Replies
I've had some really strange physical symptoms. I feel a lot of pressure around my heart. I feel pain in my heart area and fear that it will stop beating. I've had my heart checked out and they found nothing. I constantly fear they missed something. Also feel like my heart twitches at times. But I think it's my chest muscles that twitch. It's really hard to explain. Anyone else feel this?
View 14 Replies
Does anyone deal with insomnia induced by your anxiety? I have horrible insomnia (can't fall asleep and can't stay asleep). I know anxiety and insomnia go hand in hand, but I'm not certain if my insomnia is a direct result of my anxiety.
What ways do you deal with this? I was recently prescribed sleeping pills by my doctor, but those are even hit or miss as far as helping me sleep. Does anyone have any tried and true remedies that they use or have found to be helpful?
View 3 Replies
