Feel like i've lost control.... Think it might be Schizophrenia, thought this for quite a while now and the past few months my partner has been saying i have that etc.... am terrified of doctors already so i feel trapped..... maybe i'm just being stupid i don't know...
View 6 RepliesWhat Are The Possible Causes Of Schizophrenia?
View 3 RepliesI'm now 26 and I've suffered with depression since I was 14. The depression started after I started have some other reality type issues. The confusions around reality, and many thee things, is what I believe lead to my depression.
I've been on meds since last summer trying to find the right one that works.
So the reality confusions I've been experiencing...
For quite a few years now I've felt like I'm someone else, it varies as to who the someone else may be. Sometimes a famous person, sometimes a friend or family member.
I'll be sat in a room, or driving in my car, and I feel like there is a whole bunch of people who are there with me.. Sat in the room or the car.
I have full blown conversations with them, sometimes in my mind and sometimes out loud. Sometimes the conversations last for a few minutes, or sometimes it will be over an hour.
The conversations will vary, it could be about what's on TV in that moment, or a random thought that's appeared in my mind.
This is constant..
Three months ago my depression took a dive and I had a full breakdown. I'm now in a place where my psychiatrist thinks I can go back to work on 1st June, which I'm glad about.
Should I mention about my confusions around what's real/who's real.. And what/who isn't? I'm scared to do this, but wondering if I may have Schizophrenia..
I'm 23 and I've had schizophrenia and derealisation for at least 7 years but only recently diagnosed of having the disease. Can anyone tell me how long it's going to last? Has anyone recovered from the disease and what is the best treatment for it?
View 5 RepliesI was diagnosed with Psychosis in mid 2006 which I also learned on my own that I was having Schizophrenia as well.
My Psychiatrist put me under different medications from time to time. Now I have a different Psychiatrist and different medication as well, I am now using risperidone 2mg x2/day.
My question is "Am I still going to have a time when I won't have to use this medication anymore?"
I asked my doctor about it even before and he tells me not to worry as long as I follow his advice. But my problem here is that I have been taking medications since 2006 and every time I miss out to take my MEDs for more than 3 days - the voices in my head always start to come back, and they say I had a relapse so i have to start the process all over again.
Will I be having this medication for the rest of my life? Or will this surely end in some point in time?
I would like to know the cheapest and easiest way to get a DNA test for schizophrenia. I know that they do not know the exact makeup of all the genes that cause schizophrenia, but they do know some.
I live in Florida.
What is the cheapest and easiest way to do this?
And while I'm at it, why not Alzheimer's and every other genetic disease?
I want a full DNA profile of all 23 chromosomes.
I am 17 and I believe I may have this disorder. First off, I am pretty paranoid. I can't walk in public places without the fear that someone is after me. Like when I am walking from the supermarket, I always look around me cause I feel like people will kidnap me and kill me. I do this as well in school but I don't think they will kidnap me, more that they may want to just hurt me and talk about me. I hate overly crowded places. Like when im at school and it's very crowded, I basically run away. I don't eat anymore in the lunchroom, i eat in my teacher's classroom. I have had depression for over a year.
I hear voices for sure. For a long time, I'd be studying in my room and I'd always hear the tv on and my mom talking and I'd actually believe she was downstairs. But then when I go downstairs, the tv is off and my mom is sleeping. I hear voices tell me really bad things about myself and most of the time. I utterly hate my life because I can't trust those around me, I always suspect them of having this plan to make me look pathetic in public. I have 2 really bad fears: snakes and dots (trypophobia). If i see any of these, I go beserk. I had an attack during the summer because i saw a snake while i was outside, but my dad was at work, and my mom was in her home country. It took me hours before I calmed down and run back home. I kept running around the entire neighborhood like a maniac and I always visualized the snake following me. With dots, it's a whole other story. I basically scream and just turn around. I hate dots, circles close together, all that stuff. It freaks me out. For a while, I had hallucinations that snakes came down the wall. But they were squigly, small and black. I used to look at the them but they never touched the ground, they just stayed on the wall and repeated themselves like a gif.
I have become very very very unfocused in everything, I can't complete tasks anymore and needless to say this include taking a shower before the next day of school. This is bad to add but i've had a few interests in my life and when I find myself that i like them, I become creepily addicted to them in a weird way. I start to fantasize creepy stuff and on top of that i research everything about them. I even start to follow them and i won't stop liking them after a long long long time. I always laugh at the wrong things, like death. When the subject of death comes up about a person or so, I actually have to hold myself from laughing. Or when like I see someone crying about something, I hold myself from laughing as well. I have always been afraid of people's words since I was 5. That was the first time everyone in my elementary school made fun of me. They ruined my life throughout elementary school till high school. They call me names and now I can't do anything without the fear of being judged or talked about.
I also joined a cult a few years ago (I left it after a year) that the govt. was bad and it was going get me. That made me paranoid of public places even more. I also ever since I was young believed for some reason I am special. From thinking I was secretly mermaid to believing I was a witch and I knew witchcraft to thinking im the freaking avatar and I can bend 4 elements (still think that one cause i just feel as if i have that power). So basically what I'm trying to state is that I have issues but I have no idea if they fit the Schizophrenia criteria.
My parents don't believe in mental help at all, basically if I told them any of this, they would yell at me to be normal. And they have before. So do you think the criteria fits and if it similarly does...should i just try to get help on my own? i am almost 18 and i might get a job before college and im living on campus anyway. What do you think i should do? I feel like it's getting worse and that in college i feel like one day i will go crazy and explode.
Some things that have happened to me (some older, some more recent) which seem like they could fit into schizophrenia. I am going to a psychiatrist soon, so I will also get a professional's opinion.
I am also interested in which ways your thinking is different from those around you.. as I am not sure what is merely my personality and what is 'pathological'
So this is the list;
- Friend was talking, his voice gradiently silenced and a song started playing instead while his lips were still moving
- I was listening to music from another room and a song I vaguely heard maybe 2 times in my life came on, played through (lyrics, everything) and then ended. I wanted to put on another one, only to notice this one never played, in fact there was silence the whole time.
- I hear people calling me by name when they're not
- I hear people near me say things when they're silent (not sure)
- I saw a small object being thrown and disappear when touching the ground, I followed it with my look and my friends were all staring at me, shocked
- I lose vision sometimes
- I saw my room warp and my roommate grow larger
- My mentality is alien and I've been paranoid since ever
- I dropped acid and realized it's how I feel all the time; my thoughts can inflict physical pain/choking/paranoia or a very good trip, I draw same art sober or not
I've been diagnosed with OCD for 2 to 3 years now and on Zoloft. My initial fear used to be I was becoming a murderer and now it is that I'll develop schizophrenia. Im constantly paying attention to my perceptions and senses, making sure I'm not hallucinating hearing or seeing something. For awhile now I've had optical illusions where I'll see something out of the corner of my eye and think it's something else. For example, I'll see a standing object but think it's a person and then look and see it's actually just an object. I don't know if this is a sign I'm developing schizophrenia or if it's my OCD making me overthink and have anxiety.
View 3 RepliesI am a 25 year old female. I have been diagnosed with psychosis and until recently it has become almost unmanageable. I have been getting new symptoms that make me believe things are no longer in my imagination. I don't know how to tell the difference between these voices and hallucinations anymore. I am very scared and not very hopeful that things are going to improve, since I have tried numerous medications and still no luck! I am becoming very frightened that this is consuming my life and changing my entire outlook on everyday things I used to be able to do, please someone tell me Things will get better and that I not actually trying to be overtaken by demons and evil things.
View 1 RepliesSo I've never been to a Dr about this...
For ad long as I can remember I've heard two voices talking to each other about me. It made me really anxious and sad. I didn't really think it wasn't normal until like I was 12 and told my mom about it.
Its always been just those two until lately I started anti depressants and anti anxiety meds and they've pretty much stopped. (I'm 26 now and only been on the meds for 2 1/2 years)
I had a cat scan of my brain 4 years ago (I was 22) bc I was in a super mild car accident. Never followed up but it had said that my cerebral sulci ventricles were advanced for my age.
When googled I found it could be linked to schizophrenia.
Is it possible that I have schizophrenia but it's really mild and controlled? I know it would have come out by now..
I hate doctors and feel awkward and a hypochondriac so that's why I never followed up with anything!
is it good for two people who has schizophrenia to get marriage
View 1 RepliesI was tapering off clozapine and my paranoia came back. I went from 300 to 250 in a week then from 250 to 200 in another week and so on until I got down to 50. When my paranoia came back, I immediately started taking 200. Should I have slowly increased my dose? After I increased it, I got a sore throat for three days and a runny nose with lots of coughing up phlegm for a week. I'm wondering if it's from the clozapine. Is it dangerous to increase clozapine like this?
View 1 RepliesWell since i was a kid i used to have anxiety, panic attacks and i used to overthink alot.
Before going to tell what i have im gonna tell you what type of person i am. Well if i hear that a friend of mine has a illness or someone is having a tumor i would totally believe that i have it too and sometimes i have the exact symptoms and i freak out.
But lately i have different type of thoughts. I have a daily Depersonalization including weird thoughts. I don't have delusions (i don't know if daydreaming or thinking of something you wanna be is delusion) but lately i have a buzzing in my ears and especially in the left one and read on the internet that it might be a first sign of Sz.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO! i dont have the enough money to visit a therapist. And i have been checked by a neurologist nothing.
How was like when you first had a Schizophrenia ?
I wanna compare it with mine symptoms
I am off work now with depression, experiencing lack of concentration, fatigue, constant mood swings. The doctor prescribed me with antidepressants. After 2 weeks on this I felt even worse and didn't want to sleep, felt like I was in a bubble and not me anymore. I told the doctor I had voices in my head. There is a good and a bad person. He changed my meds, saying this will help with the sleep, and is referring me to a psychiatrist. Over the last few weeks I am hearing these voices all the time. I now see the voices in my head. The bad is always on the right hand side in my mind the good on the left. The bad person laughs at me and is horrible to me. The good person in my head that used to talk is even now scared of the bad voice. I was that scared the other night I put a pop up tent in the living room and slept in that. I now go in it when I feel bad. I went out the other day with my partner and I thought this man was going to get me I was petrified and want to go home to the tent. I keep thinking back to my past and if I have ever felt this bad before
Then loads of things came into my head that I had been passing off as 'normal' that really aren't. I used to sit on my own in my room when I was younger and talk to myself and would rather do that than interact with people. I have always been an over thinker and worrier, but I just feel something really bad is happening to me now.
The voices I'm hearing are in my head but getting stronger. There are several voices in there who are constant so I can't sleep. I have headphones in to try and get away from them but they are in the songs now. I have also had three occasions where I have smelt burning plastic or rubber and nobody else can smell anything??. Also shadows are turning into things like demons at nighttime which scares me.
I am still waiting to here about my referral, and schizophrenia hasn't been brought up other than me searching for answers which brought me here today.
So basically I'm a teen girl. Over the past 2 years I have been having these symptoms and they have been more apparent these past days. My anxiety has been raising and there are times when I'm super happy and then a second later I get super depressed. I'll get paranoid and scared of I don't even know. I have terrible memory and can't remember a lot of things. My parents yell at me for not doing things they asked me to do, but I don't even remember. My teacher was crying one day and I smiled at her. I know I shouldn't do that, but that's how I reacted. I'll hear things like whispers and someone saying my name, but that's all. I can't perceive any actual words, just sound. One time I thought someone had said my name and blew into my ear. I've also seen thing that I know aren't there. For a while I just thought to myself everyone has those kind of moments so it's fine. But then yesterday I thought I saw an actual person standing there. I was so scared and told myself is wasn't real and it was gone. Then today I thought I saw a kid in the parking lot, but when I looked again they weren't there. Just like I thought there was something on my friend today, but when I blinked it was gone. I'm so scared now that its going to happen one time and it's not going to be gone after I blink. That one day I'll actually be able to talk to the voices. Then I even question if it was real or just imaginary so many times everyday. They only thing that helps is to listen to music during the day. I'm also losing interest in a bunch of things I used to love. I would also self harm as punishment. I don't even know what for, but I just think I have too. My grandfather has schizophrenia also.
View 2 RepliesI was diagnosed 5 years ago as a paranoid schizophrenic. I have allot of auditory hallucinations, but never once a visual one.
A week ago when I was in my room I stared at the ceiling, I have a wood one. Suddenly the marks and patterns on it started to move, then dance. I just thought that I must have been tired and went to sleep.
Since then it got a little worse. Every night the ceiling would dance for me. Then inanimate objects would start to bend and move around. The weird thing is that when my keyboard against the wall moves, the shadow casted on the wall by it, moves with it. I found this a bit odd.
Tonight was the worst case. The blanked on my bed puffed up and moves around, exactly like there was a dog underneath. My closet door handle would move up and down while the closet opens and closes, with no sound.
When my laptop's light went down and I stared at my own reflection, things got weird. My reflection's hands would move while I am sitting still. "He" would blink when I do not. Then my whole face started to change. It puffed up and my hair was longer. When I turned my face one way, he turned a different way and started smiling at me. And our eyes never made contact. When I looked into "his" eyes, he would look to the sides or roll them back.
Because I have had this illness for a long time I didn't go into a panic as I kind of got the jest of what was going on.
Since this was my first visual experience, I just want to know if this is the "norm" of it. I did not see anything that was not there, just things moving and getting distorted.
And does anyone know if the visual part can come for the first time after me having this illness for so long?
*I might see a movie with people sitting in a car or a restaurant and I feel like I might be sitting there with them (I know I'm not) but I can imagine the amount of lighting in the room or objects.
*I read a person said he felt he was slipping further out of reality, and then I got a image in my mind of my brain or head going backwards or doubling out of reality. It keeps popping up and bothering me and Im scared that every second of the day I'm slowly slipping out of sanity or getting further out of reality.
*I feel like my thinking is a cube (it's really weird). I don't know how to describe it but I was feeling really anxious and all of a sudden I got this weird sensation as if my mind was a cube (stuck, anxious, scared) I have a sensation that there is a box in my head and my mind is stuck in it, is this anxiety?
I was diagnosed with OCD but I am scared its something else because my OCD and anxiety cause really weird thoughts. Please help I don't know how much longer I can go..
Explanation: the voices started in the head like they're entities searching for me on the streets, everywhere. Then I realized it was nonsense, and then they transformed to real voices like a man transforms to a werewolf. Not the persons walking on the street for me like before and I could see them. Then came the dead, yes and I thought for a long time I m media. Cause they banged on the upper floor and I couldn't do much. I also believe I can control them with visualizations so as they can. Some med just put me asleep or take down my aggression from me, but they don't interact with voices, exactly. So, am I media, six sense activated, or just having those schizophrenic voices in the head for few years, and am I chronically attached to that disease, I wonder? How did someone broke them, cause I m battling with them with my thoughts and still have no result on winning them. I talk with them everytime I hear them and so the talk-talk begins. I think talking to them is good, otherwise they would swallow me like a candy bar.
View 2 RepliesI'm a teen. Odd I know but I had Schizophrenia for a couple months, I try to tell my "Guardians" but they just say "Oh You're just dreaming".
"You just we're Tired." I see bad things when I wake up...a Spider in front of my face...my worst nightmare a tall pitch black figure,they become flashes when I wake up. Or when I walk in the House at night. I feel I am always watched and I go into Isolation more often than usual. I hear sounds as well. Since I deeply fear that I may wake up and end up fainting because I saw a Figure that wasn't actually there. My Best Friend Thinks i'm just Crazy. It feels when I escape a Nightmare I then live one. It seems as if no one believes me but I have most of the Symptoms, Isolated, sounds, delusions ,illusions,and a false sense of security. I just woke up and decided I need to find a way. The Only Ones who believe me are my Step Dad and Mother,but they have no control of me.
I've been hearing voices in my head and my hands would shake when I would write, I also have been under a lot of stress and I can't concentrate on my school works, I've also been very dizzy lately...
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