Men :: Circumcision After Phimosis And HPV

I was diagnosed with both phimosis and HPV, so my urologist told me to get circumcised.

Being that HPV is something serious (an illness, after all) and that my foreskin always troubled me and my sex life in one way or another (I felt weird about how it looked and intercourse was uncomfortable and painful if not impossible), I decided to undergo surgery.

Today is my tenth post-op day.

I'm very anxious about how things are developing and what will be my sex life's future from now on. I've been dealing with so much stress, lately, due to this, not to mention that it was the first time I ever stepped on a clinic (I'm almost 30 years old, by the way).

There are certain things I already knew I should expect after the surgery, such as swelling, lymph discharge, purpleness, sprinkle-like pee, etcetera, which all subsided before the first week. I even went to my urologist's office and he checked me and said that everything was going ok.

I left his office without the piece of gauze I would put on every time I came out from the shower, and it did felt quite uncomfortable walking down the street. And it still does at some point. And that's one of the things that freak me out.

For instance, I'm just unable to figure out what's annoying me the most; I don't know whether it is the rubbing of the glans or the tip's slit against my underwear, or the small bruise I've got on the sulcus, or the stitches, or everything altogether! What drives me crazy it's not the fact that I'm going through a typical circumcision post-op, but the idea that everything will feel and stay and bother me this way forever!

I sometimes regret not having a foreskin anymore (although getting rid off HPV was somewhat worth it). But it's just that I feel so awkward and frustrated... It's not only my penis what feels weird, but also my movements: they are silly and limited and unnatural. I can't seem to walk straight and at a reasonable speed. Sitting down, standing up, such basic tasks are now almost impossible to accomplish.

I think of sex, or even masturbation, how will they be in a few weeks or months... And I feel so hopeless about that.
 
I mean, will my glans ever become desensitized enough to allow me to walk, act and move normally? It already started to shed (which doesn't scare me, since I expected it to happen), but I keep wondering if that has something to do with keratinization or anything like that.

The stitches sometimes hurt (specially during erections at night, which I also expected), but I'm not sure if they have something to do with swelling (I can't tell if my penis is swelled; it does look significantly different from what it was, but still I can't figure out what should be its final shape) or with the awful sensation of having something folded around my glans, like if I still have my foreskin half rolled back.
 
Well, again, I don't want to think about masturbation and sex now, because it isn't time for such things (I even do my best to keep any dirty thought away; and it's not difficult since my libido is currently on the basement, due to my anxiety). But someday stitches will fall apart (I was given those that dissolve on their own; yet, I wonder if they'll stay forever) and I will feel the urge to release myself, at least through masturbation, and I'm scared that I won't know how to handle my new body... Not to mention sex with a partner. What if she is not patient enough or something?