Bipolar Disorder :: Selective Memory Loss In Relationship
Feb 15, 2015
Been in a relationship with a bipolar disorder person ( i believe) and after a while into the relationship , she has the notion of hurting me in the situation when she is very much emotionally involved with me as in romance etc. Seems like she loses herself and starts scratching me . i kind of ignored earlier but when i wake her up kinda thing she completes looks puzzle and asks me dis she hurt me kinda thing. She also did mention lets breakup coz its gonna get worst then this but i must admit i was adamant and was sure i can find a solution for this and we can be happy together. Then came a point whereby she went through the same episode and woke to ask me did she stab me and when realized no, she went on saying this has to stop kinda thing since next she will go to suicidal mode etc. She also went on i just cant be as normal anymore to you since my mind has already shutting u down. That evening when i got in touch with her , she told me that its happening and she was somewhere alone in her office not sure what she was trying to do neither any recollection how she got there. She was infact awaken by the cleaner lady thankfully she said. She said "i love u more then my life" to me and that's the problem . The next day when i got in touch with her , she acted as though she has no recollection of what we had in between and she seems to have memory loss on all the places and events that she has been and was with me. She even started calling me by my real name instead of dear or darling how she used to. She is also doing her studies now, and i'm confused to whether to help her to recall things that we had in the past or let it be as not to distract her from her studies and help her to recollect once she is done with her studies and then seek medical help so that we can be on track again.
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I have had bipolar disorder for quite a while now. It usually gets really bad in the winter. Last year I tried to kill myself. Since then I have started smoking weed every day. I've found it helps tremendously. I haven't cut myself for a year now. However This winter I noticed that I am so tired and groggy all the time that I can barely even function. I end up sleeping through my classes, I can barely work, and when I get home all I can do is get to my room light up and play video games. I feel like I need to sleep all the time. Does this sound like it's due to the weed or is it just my bipolar acting up for the winter time. I'm an 18 year old boy who is overall healthy in the most part.
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First apologise for spelling and grammar I'm dyslexic.
I first decided to come off lithium because of wanting a child . I was now with a man I'm crazy In Love with and about to be married this summer .
Also found out though blood test the lithium was causing low kidney function to my one kidney.
Coming off was a breeze until a week after my last dose. My chest is so tight with anxiety I feel like I murdered someone and I'm running for life .
Massive sense of guilt & fear and panic. I'm not dealing well with anything.
The only thing that makes me happy and at ease is Richards unconditional love . And planning my wedding . Started a new job and may get fired due to my anxiety and hecticness . I'm all over the place racing thought . Clumsy can't remember anything . I was a fashion designer for many years now I've gone into teaching . And it's my first real course I'll be teaching .
Waiting to see my therapist again in a few weeks but this has had such a domino effect on me . I'm also not sleeping ! Two three hours if I'm lucky .
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Lately I've been taking lithium (this will be week 3) I finally feel I am sort of seeing a difference. I can actually think now, understand things a little better, and overall I'm feeling good. But I need to know is lithium supposed to make your moods go up and down while you are still getting used to the meds? For examp. last week (which was wk 2) I was completely manic in front of my stupid coworkers. I had no idea until I was sitting on the bus to go home. Also I've been switching moods. Like from depression to mania....
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I have been diagnosed with bipolar for 8 years now and have been on Lamictal and Risperidone at different mg's. Just this week I have gone through one of my manic stages and my wife has said that is enough for her. She is asking that I leave the home we built together and the children we raised. I have no idea how to handle this. I am on the backend of my cycle however I know the level of regret I will have once I'm completely. Am i the only one that this disease has affected everyone around them? I feel alone and truly have no one to confide in.
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I just wanted to know if Bipolar is genetic. My was recently told that my grandad is bipolar and wondered if I was to as I believe I have some sort of mental problem. I don't really know much about bipolar and be good to learn about it also, not just from reading books and websites but from people who actually experience it themselves or with other people.
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I am a 25 year old female and I was diagnosed with Hashimoto's Disease probably around 2012 or so. I take 75MCG every morning and I do blood tests about once or twice a year to make sure my levels are stable. What I need help with are symptoms. My boyfriend has been very supportive, he was the reason I went to get the initial blood test because he said my symptoms reminded him of Graves Disease and it worried him. Well, I went to the doctor and got the tests done and he told me I had Hashimotos. Since then, my boyfriend has told me that he hasn't seen any improvement in my symptoms, in fact he thinks they've gotten worse. I have looked at a lot of different lists of symptoms that people with Hashimoto's Disease can experience and I experience a lot of them. I'll list the ones I experience the most and a little bit of a description to each so maybe someone can help me with what I need to do to feel better because honestly it makes me miserable.
-Hair Loss - Every time I brush or wash my hair there is always tons of hair in the brush or tub. It's everywhere all the time, I shed like the cats.
- Depression - I don't know if it is actually depression, but a lot of the time I feel like I'm just not good enough to be around anyone. I'll find myself crying at ridiculous moments with absolutely no reason for it. I also find myself thinking that people I know (and can acknowledge even when I'm feeling this way) love and care for me, and yet I still think they don't care about me and will abandon me at the drop of the hat, which breaks me down mentally.
- Stress - This is probably one of my worst symptoms. I am always stressed out about something, even ridiculous things that shouldn't be stressing me out. One of the biggest things I stress about is what I mentioned with the depression. I feel like my friends and loved ones are going to abandon me at any minute, which scares me and results in me lashing out at them in ways that if I can't control it soon enough may result in them actually leaving, which terrifies me and just puts me into a never ending loop of stress and depression.
- Anger - I can't seem to rationalize other people's behaviors. Completely normal behaviors that don't normally bother me result in me lashing out and screaming at people and saying things that I don't mean to say.
- Memory Loss - This is a really bad symptom. I forget things very quickly. If I don't actively keep it in my mind, I won't remember it. A perfect example, when I was still in college I was walking through town with some people and when we were going back to the dorms I made a comment about a truck I saw. I used to see it all the time and hadn't seen it in a while so I made the comment. The people I was with looked at me really confused and just flatly stated "You said the exact same thing when we walked by it on the way out" and I honestly don't remember seeing it at any point that day. In fact I didn't remember seeing it for around 5 months, and yet they claimed that I made the exact same comment I just had, earlier that day. It really messes with my head when people tell me that I did or said something and I can't remember doing it to save my life.
- Weight - Before I started taking synthroid I weighed 110 lbs, after I started taking it I gained like 30 lbs and I can't lose it. I'm stuck between 135 and 140 (I'm about 5'6" tall)
- Headaches - I get headaches on a daily basis. Sometimes they're really bad but generally they're just a slight discomfort in my frontal lobe area.
- Sleep - It takes me forever to fall asleep and even when I do I can't stay asleep and then I feel exhausted all day when I wake up, as if I never slept at all.
Another thing I've noticed and that is that sometimes I feel like I can't swallow properly, I always feel like I have to yawn to get a lung full of oxygen, and my nails curl downward along the curve of the tip of my fingers on like 3/5 fingers.
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Is a low level (0.5) useful although it's not quite in the therapeutic range? Thoughts?
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At first I was on 200 mg of Lamictal and (not sure the dose) of Seroquel. Seroquel made me gain weight. Worked like a charm though! Would also make me feel like I had a major hangover the next day. I said, no more, to that med. Had a really bad Mania episode during the weekend (few weekends ago) seen my doctor two days ago. He put me on 600mg of Lithium and 200mg of Lamictal. I don't have any side effects except I am so tired all day long. I take 100mg of Lamictal and 300 Lithium BUT here is the kicker. For some odd reason, mainly because I think my body hates me, if I take 200mg of Lamictal at night, to lighten up the load of my mornings, I can't sleep.... It makes no sense to me. SO I have to drink lots of water with Lithium, I can barely take a 5 hour energy because the Lithium makes my tummy hurt. I was told the side effects are short lasting. Also, I was told I will need blood work. Do you have to have blood work every so often or just that one time?? I still have Xanax for those moments when I have a really bad bout of anxiety.
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My whole body shakes from lithium. Dr decreased my dose today down to 600 mg a day. Does anyone know of any essential oils that would help with this until my lithium levels decrease.
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I just started taking 300 mg of Lithium yesterday. I was nice and calm for the day. Is it too soon to have any effects on me yet? Or was maybe I was just putting my mind on it to make me calm. My husband said I was scaring him bc I was calm and not screaming.
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Are there any doctors out there that know exactly what gets checked during a lithium blood test. Do they also look at your full blood count? I know the usual things like thyroid and kidneys but I am just wondering if the normal things get checked too.
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I suffer from rapid cycling bipolar disorder, and I'm waiting for blood test results to come back before they'll start me on Lithium. The problem I'm having at the moment is that I'm self medicating nearly every night with alcohol, it's the only thing that seems to keep me stable, I know it's not good for me, but I was wondering if anyone else out there does this, or understands it?
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i've been taking meds for bipolar disorder and ADHD since I was about 6 or 7, when I was about 13 I was taking a total of 17 pills everyday, it wasn't until about 9 months or more that I was put into a hospital for an immediate detox. my doses have always been as high as I can get. Right now I'm taking bupropion 450 mg, vyvanse 120 mg, intuniv 300mg, and at night I take zolpidem 20mg; everyday! But sometimes when I don't wake up and take my pills in the morning I get stomach pains and I feel like c**p. My mom said that I need to go see a doctor and have tests done to see if I have liver damage, but all I keep hearing is that I should smoke weed. It would help with my stress and anxiety and my eating disorder ( I sometimes put off eating when I feel bloated). Is marijuana the best option?
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I am a 45 year old female who has bipolar disorder. i currently take 20 mgs of Abilify and have started lamotrigine about 5 weeks ago. I currently take 150 mgs. I have noticed lately that i feel like i am being pinched all over my body. Could this be a side effect of lamotrigine or am i having tactile hallucination? I don't see my psychiatrist for about 3 weeks and wonder if i should call him.
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Diagnosed bipolar 2 as i have had 7-10 days hypomanic and 17 days of severe depression i write a daily diary looking at this since day 17 i get up and down days of fluctuating mood is this normal with bipolar?
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I have suffered with anx and depression for many years, but lately bipolar has been mentioned by my therapist. Could I run through my main symptoms and you kind people can give an opinion? I have bad anxiety most of the time, I don't have a classic high, my high is more about lack of need for sleep, don't seem to need much food, loads of creative work going on and I get really out of sorts if I'm interrupted. My downs happen generally after a high time of a few weeks, then I just crash out - don't want to do anything or talk to anyone
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I can not remember what I did in 1996. I have researched my personal papers but nothing can clearly tell me anything concrete.
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Im 19 years old and my memory has gotten real bad. I forget just about everything if someone tells me to do something I forget what they told me the next minute. Or I just forget the whole thing until they bring it back up or ask me again. I always seem to forget important things. Now its kind of affecting me at work if a coworker of mine asks me to do something I always forget. Im constantly lost in space alot. Is this something to worry about or just a really bad memory?
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I am a 61 years old male alcoholic and my memory is very bad. Is this normal?
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So basically I'm a teen girl. Over the past 2 years I have been having these symptoms and they have been more apparent these past days. My anxiety has been raising and there are times when I'm super happy and then a second later I get super depressed. I'll get paranoid and scared of I don't even know. I have terrible memory and can't remember a lot of things. My parents yell at me for not doing things they asked me to do, but I don't even remember. My teacher was crying one day and I smiled at her. I know I shouldn't do that, but that's how I reacted. I'll hear things like whispers and someone saying my name, but that's all. I can't perceive any actual words, just sound. One time I thought someone had said my name and blew into my ear. I've also seen thing that I know aren't there. For a while I just thought to myself everyone has those kind of moments so it's fine. But then yesterday I thought I saw an actual person standing there. I was so scared and told myself is wasn't real and it was gone. Then today I thought I saw a kid in the parking lot, but when I looked again they weren't there. Just like I thought there was something on my friend today, but when I blinked it was gone. I'm so scared now that its going to happen one time and it's not going to be gone after I blink. That one day I'll actually be able to talk to the voices. Then I even question if it was real or just imaginary so many times everyday. They only thing that helps is to listen to music during the day. I'm also losing interest in a bunch of things I used to love. I would also self harm as punishment. I don't even know what for, but I just think I have too. My grandfather has schizophrenia also.
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