Anxiety :: Really Bad Derealization
Sep 2, 2014
I have had a very hard time for about 3 months from derealisation and anxiety that I got from exam stress but I can't help but think I have a problem with my heart. I get strong heart beats, flutters and tightness and occasional chest pain and despite constant reassurance from doctors that it is absolutely fine I still think it isn't in good shape. I am scared to go out for jogs because of my fear and the one time I went the gym to get my mind clear my heart was pounding but i'm still unsure if that's due to me worrying about it in the back of my mind. My derealisation had got better but then goes really bad which worsens my anxiety. I do have good days but I mainly have bad ones , I am also having strange thoughts about reality which is making me feel crazy, am I going crazy?, I'm only 17 and I just want to be back to my old self before going through all this.
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I've been like this for 7 weeks and feel so alone & scared it seems to have gotten worse over the past week and don't feel like I can go on like this anymore x
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I felt something in my eye I rubbed my eye it went away then I started freaking out thinking it was a bug because my head started hurting now I think the bug is eating my brain lol or something crazy I know and now I have bad derealization which is scaring me.
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4.12.2012 I smoked ak-47 and it was just awesome. But I freaked out a little and it got me depersonalization and derealization. Depersonalization is almost insensible. And derealization - I think I've already been feeling like this, in childhood.
I also smoked weed in 21.12. and 31.12.. It was not as awesome as it used to be, while high, I was little scared that I might stay in dr forever.
Sucks. I have not visited psychiatrist yet, I'm going to do this month. I really don't think it's any bad (while reading other's stories, I must say my story is peaceful towards theirs'), I don't have panic attacks or anxiety (just ordinary problems such as school). It's just dr/dp.
Okay, I expect it will take up to 2 months before I will be completely healthy.
Will I ever be able to smoke weed again? (and not getting into those dr/dp things)
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I'm 16 years old. I only smoked weed from the middle of September to November 28th and since I quit I've had some withdrawal symptoms: headaches (went away), sleepiness throughout the day (still there), insomnia (I got this like a week and a half ago and I'm pretty sure this is over now), depression (still there), short term memory loss (this just came about a week and a half ago and it's still there), & anxiety/derealization/depersonalization (still there and is the worst of it all)
From a lot of what I read a lot people who go through derealization from weed had experienced derealization while high, never touched it since, and then go through derealization sober (because their brain is still "scared"; that's just my thought on this). I feel like what happened was that a "switch" was turned on in my brain from too much weed, and smoking (just a little bit) again and getting a good, pleasant high would turn that switch off and basically tell my brain that everything's ok as long as I don't overdo it (my panic attack came from smoking WAY too much good weed at once). It makes sense to me but I wanted other opinions on this
Now I know you're probably thinking this is stupid, but I just don't think that since I only smoked for 2 1/2 months I should still have derealization after almost a month and a half of being sober. Now it has gotten better in the past 45 days; I've even seen an improvement since New Years but this is taking a huge toll on me. Now for the reason I say weed could possibly be my cure: From what I understand about DP/DR, it's something that "gains it's power" from worrying about it. And I know when I smoke weed I forget all the BS.
Then again I feel like weed could possibly make things worse than they already are and I don't wanna make these past 45 days wasted time and end up back in square 1. I read that it could take 6 months for this to be over but those were cases for 1+ year smokers. Will it still take 6 months for my 2 month use??? And because I still feel this way I feel like I messed up my brain for good. I just want my memory and sense of reality back!!
PS: I'm planning on going back to weed in the future (I'm talking once a month/every other month, maybe every 3 months) so should I start in moderation now or wait 'til everything's over?
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I had my first panic attack 6 years ago, shortly after graduation from college, at 23 years old , in May 2008 and they became more and more frequent in the subsequent weeks. I did not have health insurance and opted to not go to the hospital. Eventually I became a hermit in my room, waking up in terror all night, not being able to breathe. My girlfriend at the time was seeing a psychiatrist and I finally went. She diagnosed me with panic disorder and depression, based on a dysfunctional childhood. She put me on Xanax .25 to .5 mg as needed. This drug was a miracle for me and I was quite ignorant six years ago in relation to health and meds. I was finally able to breathe again and live, until I woke up with constant urinary urgency that did not stop for several years, throughout this period I had 0 panic attacks, as I was in constant pain. Medication only made it worse, the only thing that helped me survive was Xanax. I never abused it. I was on and off every ssri and bladder pill on the market and tried everything from silver water to bee pollen. Nothing ever worked for the ic or prostatitis and doctors gave up on my chance for recovery. Through the years on my own, I found relief, but the anxiety increased as did the Xanax slowly. I moved to sc three years ago and quit smoking lost 50 lbs once I started to run 15 to 20 miles a week, and began to take classes in nutrition in my leisure time, getting rid of the fast food and substituting it with organic produce and juicing, after many years in constant pain I have become obsessed with learning the error of my ways. I started on my own tapering my Xanax and bladder pills, at the time I was on a combine 15 prescriptions, and now I am on two, Xanax and elmiron for the bladder, and I am reducing them. I started to have brain for, or derealization about two years ago in the midst of my health search. I can barely feel emotion, kind of like I am not alive, I can barely remember getting to work once I am there, I put on this smile and have been faking it for a long time. Life has lost all feeling. If I take a Xanax it gets a little better, as in I just do not care. I feel like a machine and sometimes I feel like I cannot take it. I am down to .125 mg to .25mg of Xanax a day and have started some herbs like st johns wort and kava, but am so fatigued and brain fogged Is the Xanax causing this? Or the withdrawal due to my tapering? Or is it the Anxiety? I cannot get any real answers from the doc, as he just wants to give me more chemicals, the only thing U S doctors do these days. Any experience this would my very helpful. How can I awake from this fog and feel alive again? How long will it take?
Any help would be much appreciated! I am a 29 year old male, 145lbs. I exercise regularly and have a very healthy diet.
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I have had derealization, head pressure numbness, constantly dizzy and at night bright lights are very blurry and bright with halo around them, I have had a couple headaches also, this all started after doing a very heavy weight lifting exercise call deadlifts, ever since then I have had derealization 24 7 along with all the other symptom besides headaches I have had 2 so far, I have been like this for half a year 6 months my worst feeling is the derealization, I feel as if nothing around me is real like I'm in a cartoon and it gives you a spacey dumb feeling, I have natural high blood pressure and was taking creatin while working out maybe I caused a anyresum in my brain that deals with reality perception.
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So basically it all started a few months ago back when i had a terrible panic attack on weed. I smoked a blunt with a friend, i don't know whether the weed was laced or anything, but my friend seemed perfectly alright so i don't think it had anything in it. I thought i was going to die, my heart beat really fast, i felt sick and i thought i was going to be insane for the rest of my life. The next day after the panic attack i felt slightly weird and a bit paranoid when i woke up in the morning. I then went to work as usual and i realized that something was a bit off. I didn't know back than that it was probably derealization. Anyway two days after my experience everything was fine and i didn't waste to many thoughts on my experience. Until about two and a half months later...
It was pretty much a stressful time period in my life and i worked quite a bit. I didn't touch anything after that experience, but one day after work and a work out at the gym i had a bad panic attack which was sort of like a flashback to my experience as well. It hit me when i was walking in a park at nighttime and i felt very bad for an hour. Eventually it wore off and I went to sleep that night. The next day i was thinking about what i had experienced the last night, but i thought i might have been just really tired or didn't eat enough. The next days i had small attacks which were bad, but didn't concern me too much, but little did i know that i was getting a flu. During my flu which lasted a week the derealization hit me again. All the lights were really bright and i felt in a dream like state. Those feelings eventually passed with the flew after about 2 weeks.
A few weeks back from now i had another big panic attack which also felt a bit like my first panic attack on weed, so i guess it was sorta like a flashback. At that point i didn't know what was happening to me. Why was i always getting these attacks?? Did the weed trigger something or am i psychotic now?? I was really afraid to go insane and lose my mind. I was researching about schizophrenia and how panic attacks/derealization are a common symptom of it. I felt constantly like i was drunk/high, i had long after images, objects were breathing when i looked at them, lights were always too bright, everything felt unreal like in a video game. This made me feel really anxious all the time and i think this got me deeper into the derealization. The panic attacks have passed, but until now which has been probably about 2 months with more or less derealization i don't know what to do. I don't know how it got triggered, whether i do have a ptsd from my weed panic attack which i have to think of very often these days as i see it as the point where everything started. I am constantly worrying about losing my mind and don't know what to do. Do you think i might have a psychosis or is it more a ptsd or a anxiety disorder? Please let me have your thoughts.
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About 3 and half weeks ago (24 days to be exact) I ingested 100 mg of a drug called Molly, which is a form of Ecstasy. This was done simultaneously with lots of alcohol (all beer). I am typically not a drug user, trying marijuana only a couple of times, but I had consumed alcohol fairly often (pretty much every weekend, not during weeks), before that. I was with 10 other people in a safe setting who all did the drug (most of which took a higher dose).
In the days after the night that I consumed the drug, I felt extremely lightheaded, nauseous, couldn't sleep, heart was racing, and I was very worried that I had done permanent damage to myself or my brain. As the weeks have gone by, the nauseousness and insomnia have gone away, but I still am feeling lightheaded and dizzy. Everyone that I was with felt completely back to normal after a day or two, and it seems I am the only one who feels this way. It is better than it was the week after, but by no means do I feel normal. I am now extremely worried and having extreme anxiety that I will feel like this forever and that I have permanently messed myself up.
Does anyone know what could be wrong with me? I just want to feel normal again. I have been to two doctors, each of whom has taken a blood test from me, and they told me that the blood tests came back normal. They both told me that the lightheadedness and dizziness would both subside, and that I needed to stop worrying about it, but it has now been almost 4 weeks and I am still feeling the same way.
I am just really scared that I have messed up and ruined my life by taking that one drug one time.
PS; I am fully aware what a mistake it was to take the drug in the first place. I understand that whatever I am feeling I deserve, and I will never come close to doing any hard drug ever again.
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Hi. I just wondered if what I'm experiencing is normal. For the past 2-3 months I've had constant anxiety symptoms. I'm not just talking anxious thoughts (although I have those all the time), I'm talking physical symptoms. All day long, I have a horrible tightness in my chest, butterflies in my stomach, dry mouth, internal shaking in my legs and adrenaline rushes up and down my body. I can't control the symptoms, no matter how hard I try. When it first hit, it was different. I had constant nausea & a general feeling of not being able to cope. But I could switch out of it sometimes and feel normal. Now I can never switch out of it. It's there all the time, although the nausea has stopped. I even have it in my sleep because I've actually felt it in my dreams and when I wake up, it's still there. (Not that I can sleep much in this state. 5 hours is the most I ever have.) I'm on Citalopram but if anything, it's made my anxiety worse. The leg symptoms weren't there before I went on the drug and nor was the chest tightness.
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I've had some really strange physical symptoms. I feel a lot of pressure around my heart. I feel pain in my heart area and fear that it will stop beating. I've had my heart checked out and they found nothing. I constantly fear they missed something. Also feel like my heart twitches at times. But I think it's my chest muscles that twitch. It's really hard to explain. Anyone else feel this?
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Does anyone deal with insomnia induced by your anxiety? I have horrible insomnia (can't fall asleep and can't stay asleep). I know anxiety and insomnia go hand in hand, but I'm not certain if my insomnia is a direct result of my anxiety.
What ways do you deal with this? I was recently prescribed sleeping pills by my doctor, but those are even hit or miss as far as helping me sleep. Does anyone have any tried and true remedies that they use or have found to be helpful?
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Iif anyone has got this it is only mild acne and do u know any good treatments I've tried antibiotic but they don't work
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Anyone else taking this? I find it helps so much but am afraid of becoming dependent on it, I try to take as little as possible but as I am going through AD withdrawal my anxiety is very high at the moment, anyone else take it daily?
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I am 15 and about to start a new part of my life in 10th grade. When I was younger I went to a small school in a very popular area of South Australia. I had one friend in particular that I have been friends with for over 9 years now. He and I were like 2 peas in a pod for most of our primary days but he moved to a different school then I did after we graduated. Now that I have reached year 10 at a high school college I feel as if I only have 3 more years to live my life easily before I have to get a part time job and go to university. I mainly have anxiety because I recently went on a family holiday with him and we recalled all the things we did when we were younger and one of the most treasured was playing a certain video game with him. We then played this video game once again and so many memories just rushed back to me the more I played. Now all I can think about before I sleep or when I am bored is the anxiety of no re-living these moments that I have clinged onto for so long. I just want to lose my anxiety, has anyone got any ideas or are in the same circumstance as I am?
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I'm really scared I'm getting blackheads on my face my buggers just came out white my rea hurt like I feel I need to shut them closed doctors say I'm fine but say I'm dealing with extreme anxiety is this normal pl is this Norma some one help me
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Something is wrong with me. I can feel it for some time. My wife is noticed, and my kids too. I am under a lot of stress on my job. I work in marketing. Last few months I feel that somebody is constantly watching me. They follow me to work, on vacation everywhere. I think I am paranoid. What should I do?
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For sometime now I am diagnosed with anxiety. I get some medications and was advised for group therapy. Problem is that I do not feel better at all. I am still "trembling" every time I had to do some things or to go somewhere. Friend of mine told me that Paxil helped her with hers problems. I have no knowledge of hers diagnose, but I wonder, could Paxil be used for my anxiety?
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I am currently suffering a severe bout of anxiety - the 4th in my life. I am 41 and a single parent I'm trying to manage without medication although have taken it in the past. My body is testing me with different symptoms every few weeks. The one i'm struggling with at the moment is bad eye floaters. I know i have them its just they 'appear' (i hope) to be worse and this is making me really stressed and panicky. Has anyone else had this and then they improved or their attitude to them improved? I feel like i'm going to go blind or something and it is really getting me down. I am a trying to manage this so i can have a life with my son.
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I take Xanax 0.25 three times a day as needed for anxiety but my question is if I take 2 of these at once does it still work the same as if u are taking a 0.5 mg pill? Cause the reason for asking is that I need to start taking these before I hit the bed for sleep so I can relax myself down which at night it gets worse?
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Dr. Just started me on Gabapentin. I'm taking it for anxiety. I'm very sensitive to meds so he started me on 100 mg 3x day. Depending on how I feel, he will up dosage in 2 wks. Will I feel anything on this low dose?
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